in may i went to the hospital and got diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. since then my life has been hell, and it's not even directly caused by the disorder, i don't think. it's just that it set my health anxiety off to levels i previously didn't think possible, literally in and out of panic attacks at times, so tense and tired all the time. a week ago i woke up thinking i was having a heart attack, went to the ER, and had an even worse panic attack while waiting for results. i just can't manage with this. right now i am fairly calm for a change, i just don't know how long it will last. i've had bad health anxiety ever since i was in elementary school, and one of my worst fears always was multiple sclerosis. now that the fear has "come true", i feel like the confirmation has fed my anxiety to become an even worse beast. i am looking for therapy but anyone who's gone through the process knows how hard it is and how long it can take.