I don't even know what the fuck I'm doing on here, acting like a depressed ass bitch and its not even like my parents hit me or anything so why the fuck am I so sensitive. like okay they have mentally scarred me and my dad used to 4bu53 and sa me but like that's in thefucking past and I just need to let go of it and I'm not saying this to like be rude because ofc I care about evb else other then me and I feel like a fucking failure but when it comes to other people in the biggest empath and I'd rather d13 then see another person struggle and it just brings me so much pain to see other people hurt but when it comes back down to me idgaf and sometimes I think , " is it because that's all I've been shown? to love others and not love myself?" but Idk and oh my fucking gosh, my siblings get all the fucking special treatment and my mum will say things to me that will hurt my feeling but wont even apologize and instaead just try to make me forgit about it by buying me something pt1..