growing up as a middle, i’ve always been the ambitious one. may mataas akong pangarap para sa sarili ngunit habang tumatagal i don't see the vision anymore, its like life is giving me less, hindi dahil sa yun lang ang kaya ko ngunit yun lang kasi ang kailangan. to grew up in a toxic family means sacrificing yourself in the process without the feeling of being reciprocated or appreciated. i’ve done things—regretful, nonsense and things that would impact my life talaga ON MY OWN. my mother never went to any school activities that needed a parent, she never went to my excellence awards from elem to high school, she had become my hindrance. at ngayon nag-away sila ng bunso at panganay kung Kapatid at damay nanaman ako and that just proves na no matter what i do, my worth would still be base on how i perform(sacrifice). kasi i never dare na sumuway but siblings can do it without feeling guilty, but i never get praise kahit sa mga achievements ko sa school. i jst wnt to finish schol pcefully