My relationship with my partner is broken, I have nobody to talk to because nobody knows I'm in a relationship. I want to vent, but I feel like I don't have the right to be upset because I hurt my partner a lot. I don't think my feelings are important enough to feel upset. I continuously make a lot of mistakes and push my partner away, does it mean I'm tired of our relationship? I don't know. I had to burn my items, throw important items away, I distanced myself from my family and friends, I lost myself. But it feels like it's my fault. They cheated on me and claimed it was my fault, I guess it was.. I couldn't change. I couldn't become better. I kept telling them that I would change and get better but I couldn't. I still stayed with them after they cheated but I've been a wreck after it, always angry, holding resentment towards them. I should leave but I don't have the courage. They say they can't live without me, but they wanted to leave me so many times. I don't know what to believe