I loved you and I wasn’t allowed. They found out and it killed me. It still does and for some reason although the things I’ve been through is worth the pain of 5 lifetimes, there’s a part of me that doesn’t regret it. In my fathers eyes it was a mistake and a break of a rule so big it almost ended my life. But I love you. I love your dumbass jokes. I love your stupid Dutch accent. I love your blue eyes that I’ll never see again. I love how much you adored and supported me. You were my safe place and now you’re gone. I know one day you’ll marry a beautiful woman that matches you and your culture, have kids with eyes even better than yours and end up being even taller. I’ll marry a man I never wanted because I only want you and it’s been so long but I haven’t changed my mind. Ill never reach out Tim. Ill never contact you. Ill never reach for you, not because I don’t want you, but because the consequences of love are too much for me to handle. I wish u the best n gn and sweet dreams ml…