I don't think I was ever good enough for anyone. I made fake promises to myself. Reality revealed itself to me. No one actually cared. I feel terrible. I want to go away for the longest time possible. I want to leave. But how do I do that, when I know that in the whole world, there's that one person who genuinely cared about me? He, who always comforted me in my darkest times? He, who was my best friend? He, who was always there for me? It's 11pm. I said to myself I'd sleep at 9:30pm. Now I'm just awake. In my bed. I'll try sleeping, one last time. Goodnight.