.I lost contact with my friend of 10 years recently and haven’t been able to get over it. Its weird because it’s almost like I remember being with him like it was yesterday. Not only him but I’ve slowly been losing touch with all of my friends and I’m down to my last 3 friends. If I’m entirely honest I’m scared I’ll lose them too. I can’t take it either that I can’t seem to relate to them much anymore it’s like I’m entirely different. I even find myself wanting to be alone and shoving myself away from them when they want to hang out. Everything is becoming numb, I’m finding myself having less and less joy doing my hobbies losing will power and confidence. I just don’t know what to do anymore, it seems more and more I’m staying up late alone doing nothing but thinking what I could do to get me even slightly entertained. I can’t even think about what bothers me anymore with how foggy it’s gotten and there is nothing I can do about it but watch. Thank you for reading.