I just need to get fit and get fucking laid. Its been 6 years and im still heartbroken over a mid girl that loved me for a bit. Let's be honest, she was pretty stupid and terrible in bed. Honestly what an awful fucking time. I have to stop wearing rose tinted glasses all the time. If she does give me the chance to talk and apologize for the way I treated her, then I should subtly make clear that I have very little happy memories. Basically just confirm that she way right and that neither of us loved each other. She doesnt believe that but im sure it would fuck her up. I hope she gets cancer honestly. I truly hope some terrible shit happens to her and her life is irreparably altered forever. Fuck that'd be sweet. She refuses to even speak to me for 6 years so I certainly hope she's having a terrible go of things. She probably fucking is. Ill bet she's back on the ssris. She looked fat in the photo ag Sarah's wedding. I hope she cries as much as she fuckign used to. All lies. I miss her