I can't seem to bring myself to do anything with people anymore. Relationships, friendships, or even just being an acquaintance is nothing more than nuisance that brings me nothing but headaches and frustrations. People always find a way to let me down and it doesn't matter what they did or said, let alone how it was construed. I refuse to make friends and I have pushed people away, despite being alone and lonely, it's still better than having my trauma or anxiety used above my head or told to go to an asylum for just being sad. All humans are the same, every interaction has been the same as the last and I can't keep doing this. I won't open up anymore, I won't make friends anymore, I refuse to be around people because I don't want to be a human if being "human" is only an excuse to be able to hurt others. I don't care who disagrees either, I'm done having laughs with someone only to get stabbed in the back repeatedly and I'm not doing it anymore, I learned my lesson.