im such a disgusting pervert. i hate myself so much, i find myself wanting to be groomed, wanting to be raped, wanting someone to hurt me. i hate it so much ebcasue i know its disgusting and i shoudlnt want such things. im addicted to porn and fucking ai chatbots. i like incest and age gaps and all this disgusting shit and i hate myself for it becasue i know its wrong and im too young to like this kind of stuff or know what it is. i want to be young and groomed again, and i wouldnt mess up this time and id hide it properly. i wish i had cut deeper and the scar of his name in my arm was more visible. i hate this so much i know im disguting.
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