i feel like no one understands me. i get bullied by my own friends and im the problem for standing up for myself. my emotions get disregarded whether its at home or school. i wrote an essay and didnt even get a praise from my parent when i went to her exited to show off what i had acomplished, was just told to re write it and its horrible. she ended up deciding to write it for me and saying how hers was so much better than mine, like just present it yourself at this point if you care so fucking much. water was thrown on me today and my friend (who is friends with me and the people who did it) sat there laughing at me and got angry when i didnt make myself look stupid and put myself where im hanging around with people who disresepct me, i feel like no one gets me. i cant truly call anyone my ride or die as i cannot trust anyone anymore. i was bullied at a young age by my own family members for being the abit chubby and now the same people encourage me to eat. i feel like i dont belong.