How could my life have come to this?? I always listen and nobody returns the favour when i need it most. Whenever im finally honest about my depression diagnosis i can see all of you deflect your eyes, wishing you were anywhere but listening to me at the moment. All of you tell me "but ive never seen you cry", these words always make my throat clog up and my head dizzy. Will you all believe me please, it hurts so much every day, will you please believe me. I am also a person and im begging on my knees please notice me. What have i done to unleash this terrible suffering upon myself