i cant stand being airund other people i let my groomer back into my life because i dojt know how to deal with teenage drama from peoole my age i feel gross and ik its wrong and i dont wanna get caight bc he already got cancelled and shunned from the community but they dont kjow whwt he did to me so technically its not that bad they just think hes a loser proshipper i hate him and i know what he does and it makes me feel disgusting but he also makes me feel safe in a weird way. like hes gross and evil but hes nice and easier to talk to than other people are its sick but i go back anyway