I hate myself im so fucking jealous of everyone who was born male and i feel so useless and ugly, and not myself in my own skin. I want to rip the skin i have off and replace it with someone else to feel happy. I'm in a religious household and I hate it, I don't fucking want it. I can't feel or be myself around my relatives. I hate my voice, I hate my hair, I hate my face, i hate that I can't be born the way I want to and I'll never be able to be happy. I have such a hard fucking time expressing my emotions to people and I can't take it anymore because all anyone sees is disrespect or laziness and I'm not trying to be that way. I just can't look at myself without feeling like garbage. I just want to tell a human being everything ive been going through and feeling, but i always fucking play it down and act like its not a big deal and then get upset that they don't understand what It feels like. I feel like all I wanna do is die atp