I hate the way i look. I don't know how to explain it without sounding shallow. But I just want to be perceived as beautiful. like the type of girl you notice when she walks past I've had nothing in my life ever go my way, I'm thankful for everything in my life that I do have, but I feel like my life has been mostly let downs. And that's all it'll probably ever be So can I at least be beautiful? Apparently not, I was screwed at birth Curly hair, glasses, rosacea around my nose, eye bags, and a huge forehead. I was fucked from the start. I don't have the money or the funds to afford the things I need to fix. I want surgeries and products but I can't afford any of it. it honestly makes me suicidal The thought that maybe in the next life, I could be beautiful. It's very tempting. And I feel like whenever I do get a compliment. It's always cute or pure. Like I'm a fucking dog or a bunny or something I wanna be beautiful like a woman, something that's wanted But I'm stuck with cute and ugly