if one more person friend-dumps me this year i might actually fucking lose it. i can only take so much heartbreak. i can only handle so much rejection from people who used to accept me for who i am. i have to put my guard up for people that i was vulnerable with and it's exhausting and depressing. it doesn't matter to them how much i fucking give. it's never enough to them. someone has decided for whatever reason that i'm a problem that she wants to eliminate. i can't believe i ever admired her. she's a bully. this is such bullshit. i don't even feel safe opening up anymore. it all just feels pointless.