I've been with him for almost 8 years and he's broken my trust and my heart so many times that I have zero feelings left for anything. Not for him, our marriage, or anything in life, to be honest. I'm in no way perfect by any means. But, the emotional, and now physical abuse is adding to the list of things that make it hard to want to live this life with him. We used to be so good together. But it slowly went downhill with the emotional cheating, lying, breaking boundaries, threatening divorce, throwing things, pushing and hurting me. I just don't know what to do anymore. We're currently building our house. I'm stay at home with no money of my own if I wanted to leave. No kids but we have pets. Our families think everything is great. Meanwhile, I'm walking around with bruises and a fake ass smile to protect him for some reason. Mainly because I'm stuck and have no clue what I'd do if I left