I feel like shit. Theres someone I care for, with my life. Shes been feeling better after dealing with suicidal thoughts, and I'm so glad for her, but when we called today, she said 'Its honestly better because you've away.' ... I tried talking to her today. I'm extremely anti-social. I hate talking to people. And I've been feeling down or shitty for weeks, if not a whole month now. And I've told her to please stop pointing fingers at me. I get her reasons. But... I dont have the mouth to tell her that it makes me feel like a brat, that my opinons dont matter.