So my grades are bad and ik but thats because I don't believe I any thing they teach me when im there like outside school nobody will ask me what the area of a square is to get in a job other then a math teacher and it's messing up my plans for the summer with my boyfriend it's not what I planned and im very mad and disappointed at myself and I don't know what to do my father geez all that matters is grade I could be a fucking robot and he wouldn't care this 4th of July party with my bf even his mother wants my to go and now im sure I cant and I'd be letting them down I really wanna go idc if I cant do anything else but this one thing matters alot to me I also thought my bf was cheating on me because of what I dad said but even I knew deep down it's not true it hurt to think that way because we text a lil off and im sorry for wtv problems I cause but it's not that I wanted to it's just my mind sometimes takes over things ik I do wrong I hate myself and hate my feelings rn thank you....