spend a lot of time online, it’s not healthy but the relationships that I have built means so much to me. It brought me so much joy being able to play games with my online friends and make memorable memories and just goofing around. I feel guilty for leaving that friendship behind, I will never tell them the truth. That I struggle with depression and hurting myself. I want to leave home because staying here makes me suicidal, I can’t accept/process that I’m being abused and repeatedly assaulted. My mental health keeps getting worse, I feel like a bad friend sometimes. I feel jealous seeing my friend online and playing with other people. But it's better for them to forget me, because I don’t know if I’ll make it to tomorrow.