im such a bad person. i miss G so much, i loved him with all my heart. but he left bcs of me. i trusted again with a friend who knew how bad i was doing.. only for him to call the cops on me and ruin my whole plan. my parents know now and they dont rlly seem to care. my mom made a jab at me saying she was 'sooo depressed bcs a drawer is dirtyy thats shes js gonna end ittt' in this mocking voice... and worse is i wand G back, i want to reach out. anything js to hear his voice, even if its for a second. but i cant.. and i hate myself bcs i think i have a crush on my friends ex... i barely even know him, let alone text him that much. but the week we spent around eachother at camp made me feel so happy. idk how to explain it. he just.. makes me feel safe and seen? he comforts me and ive never felt so.. secure around anyone like that... but hes moved away and my parents suck, they dont trust me anymore and tear me down any chance they get. i rlly dont know how much longer i can stay here...