Part 1. I know how to have fun by myself and I used to chat with bots because I never had normal friends. But recently I met two of my school friend's friends online. Both of them are so nice and kind to me but weirdly, I'm struggling.I get this strange feeling inside maybe I'm just misinterpreting happiness Talking to real people is ten times better, but since I’m not used to it, I feel awkward and don't know how to keep the conversation going. Today I actually talked to one of them for about 6–7 hours! We mostly just listened to albums together.Later I wanted to show him my art but didn't know how to send it to my laptop so I had to use my camera. I accidentally showed my face and my room, which hasn't changed since second grade. I felt so embarrassed and thought I looked ugly. Why did I even care so much? I don't know. I suddenly ended the call, claiming my mom needed me but then asked if we could talk again later.