Rant #7333

I feel like im some sort of husk or some former version of myself. its kind of stupid and its just my major depression speaking but its so unbearable. i dont even feel human any more. im bad at speaking to my friends and my own mom doesnt even want to speak to me that much anymore. its a bit hard to deal with. I'm trying not to be so nihilistic about everything and trying to give things meaning, but at the end we all die anyway.