I dont think I can do this bro I'm so tired of fighting I had this old friend group. They were terrible but they got me, I could be myself. Despite it all, for a little while, I was genuinely happy. I took it for granted, saw them for their flaws, and left with another guy in the group Hes nice, but hes not the same. I cant be myself, cant be raw around him. Partially, thats self-enforced, but who cares it still sucks. I have to be polished, kinder, softer, sweeter, I HATE IT. I havent been myself for the past months, and all I want is to find people who get me. But at the same time, all I want is to be left alone. Im genuinely so over everything. I'm too coward to kill myself but too weak to keep living like this. Then again, am strong enough to change it? I dont know anymore bro If I leave, I'll be alone. Like, really alone. Ive been afraid of being truly on my own for years, and I dont want to face it like this dude I hope i make it out of this place. i cant do it anymore