I feel very sad lately more worse than all my other sad days, sometimes I feel like I’m mistake, I don’t think my family likes me very much I don’t blame them I’m a huge embarrassment I don’t get anything and I’m ashamed for being different than everyone I always end up doing something wrong, I’m really chubby too so I’m not that pretty, sometimes I feel like everything would be better if I was gone, not dead or killing myself anything god no, I guess I just wanna disappear to a place without me.