I feel so much pressure and anxiety and pain inside of me and idk what to do anymore. I feel so sick to my stomach that im going to end up a failure. All my life ive only had me on my side. Its usually me and my family against the world but what happens when its you against your family? My parents have each other and im an only child with barely any friends and any family members that gaf about me. I feel so alone and im so tired. I've been tired for 6 years and sometimes I wish I could give into my thoughts and do it already. I just wish I had someone on my side for once, someone who could see how badly I want a hug or how badly I want someone to listen or how badly I just wish I wasnt failing everyone. Just yesterday I tried driving again for the first time in this old ass truck and hit a tree with my mom inside and shes had the car for decades and I felt really bad and instead of making mr feel better..she didn't and now shes still upset and im still sad I just want someone.