i hate my father. he makes me feel so much pain but also, i love him. when he's happy, he's the best father i've ever had, but when he's angry, i cant even explain how i feel. Whenever he's angry, i feel so nervous and just helpless around him. He screams, yells, throws things, i don't know how to feel anymore. He manipulates people, making them feel bad for him instead, when he's ALWAYS in the wrong. He starts un needed arguments with family FOR NO REASON and gets angry at the smallest things. It''s so draining, and i don't think i can deal with him and how he treats me anymore.