I'm so fucking tired of myself, I want to fucking die, to cut my skin, to rip my fat off, but I'm too much of a pussy to do it. I'm an actual fucking loser, I don't know how my friends look at me with a straight face. I want to be fucking murdered, if I wasn't such a pussy I'd be hanging off a tree by now, if my fat ass doesn't break the branch or bring the whole tree down at least. I was looking at photos of me from the this passing school year, and I found out that I can't stand, stare, yawn, or even smile anymore because I look like my fucking grandparents had sex with a dog and then my parents are siblings. I actually look hideous, how do people even stare at me with a straight face? I want to fucking die, I'll never be fucking helped, I hate myself with a passion, I'll never keep anything.