Sometimes, I always wonder to myself why I keep being so quiet in chats on the summer. Like I act so happy and funny in real life but then I become so quiet and don't even bother to text to my friends. It's like I'm awkward on the internet than in real life unless I'm around my best friends. It's shaming me every single day because I promised myself that I'll keep texting my friends even on the summer because I can't go out by my mom. I can't even send a single text without thinking "Does she want to talk to me anymore? Is she in a good mood to text me..." It's been a month since I last texted her. I desperately want to text her but I can't bring myself to when she's probably thinking I ghosted her for life. I even made another account just so I don't have to look at my conversations with my friends because it makes me guilty how I don't even bother to text them because I wonder if they even want to talk to me anymore. I don't hate them, I just don't like texting.