I feel so confused, it's like a hardend rock in my head, I used to love serving Jesus and I truly felt happy but now Everytime I think of him I feel nothing,even after I sin, I know it's probably because of a sin I can't let go of or maybe I didn't repent correctly? Idk Everytime I do tried repenting it feels like I can't even focus on him, typing this is honestly making my head hurt of where the rock was at, it's like I can think of anything but the Lord, I want to feel bad and terrible of myself but I can't, it's like a rock being there never ever leaving, I don't know am I supposed to repent, I try and then my mind scatters around and my mind starts talking to myself, why is this happening it's like a complete wall in my brain whenever it comes to Jesus, I can't even think correctly, I feel disappointed of myself of this, maybe I need water or go outside? why is this happening I need to focus on him, i can't stand always sinning knowing my father is sad.