i lost all my friends because i made a stupid mistake. they are trying to make jealous and mad and its working. i feel worthless and i feel like living trash. all i wanted was real connections and now it's all gone because I started struggling with my mental health. This whole situation makes me want to relapse because I honestly am in so much anguish that I cant eat, I cant sleep, and i cant do anything other the think what I could've done differently.