i fucking hate the fact that i can't get a phone and can't get snapchat. my parents don't fucking understand the meaning of social connection and i feel like down the road that's going to severely impact my mental health. day after fucking day i feel like i'm slowly losing my fucking mind and i want to just leave it all. i don't want to feel like this. i know it feels like addiction but i know i would feel so happy if i just got the things i wanted for once. my life is going great, i would say, but i can't fucking take the fact that i can't get a damn phone or get social media.