I hate the world. I wish I could just disappear. Why does everyone fucking act like they have it all together?! I hate the world! They say “it’s okay not to be okay” but shut the fuck up because no one cares. No one pays attention, and they forget about it. In the end you’re right where you started. But it’s my fault. I have so much anxiety spread throughout my life but not enough to be noticed or cared about each day. I wish I was a better person for my friends. i want to say i care!! But showing too much emotion is too vulnerable in today’s day and age. I hate how those people treat friends as just people who are there. I hate you and I don’t know why I want to try to be friends with you if you won’t care in the end anyway. I’m just so scared everything is going to fail and crash and die. Because I’ve already given up on myself somewhere deep inside me. I’m not sure if this makes sense, but I hope it does.