Im starting to hate myself for "hating" narcissists. Like. Obviously it's a disorder I don't genuinely hate everyone who has it. But I feel so repusled whenever I see someone mention it. Every person who's done me wrong has been diagnosed with npd and I feel like such a bad person for being Tired of it. I can't handle any more people who can't reciprocate my Care for them . Every single one of them has fucked me up in some way and made me feel worthless my entire life. And now,as soon as I'm starting to get help and appreciate myself more,I Coincidentally start dating another person with npd. And it's really fucking hard. But I don't have the heart to break up with him. It's eating me alive because Id never allow myself to hate someone especially over a disorder they have. But everyday I grow more and more tired. And annoyed. It just pisses me off I Can't do anything about it I'm too much of a pussy to mention it. I still want him to be ok. But it's so hard to love these days