Im a loser. I have no car. I have no job. My bf is in debt and no matter what i apply for I never get hired. I'm to afraid to drive. I live with him but I'm trying to slowly move my things back to my mom's without him noticing. I'm a woman a lame awkward afraid of my own shadow woman. I'm awkward and quiet and my anxiety controls my life. In the passed few months I've thought about ending my life mostly because I'm just tired of being nothing and going no where. No matter how much time goes by I only seem to become a worse version of myself. I hate that how I live effects my family and those I love. I'm grateful people care about me as much as they do or id have been homeless a long time ago. I have jobs I keep em for a few years and then either I get anxious and quit or so depressed I admit myself somewhere and I'm tired. I'm such a loser. I've dreamt about changing but I think it's to much to late.