My boyfriend cheated on me a month ago and I told him we could work through it and sort it out. a few days before he started cheating he was planning our proposal. two weeks after i found out, he went to her house again. the problem is he is psychotic. I love him with my whole soul, everyone tells me i need to move on with my life but it is so hard to just stop loving someone. he did fuck me up for life and destroy my mental health but i cant just stop loving someone. my family and friends always said i care and love to much and i think ive finally realised what they mean. I am so broken and destroyed, every person ive loved has made me feel like an option and i would proudly talk with his friends and family about how i can trust him with my whole heart. then boom. he really destroyed me, i wish i could stop loving him but i know its going to take so long and destroy me. I didnt know rock bottom had a basement honestly but i think im in it.