i am schizoid. apparently it isn't healthy to not interact with others. every time i try, i am disrespected, ignored, or harassed. why the fuck should i try, then? interacting only makes me more miserable. i see no point in friendships or relationships. i'm obliged to care about family, but outside of that, it all ends horribly. every friendship i've had? ends horribly with hatred and blocking. every romantic relationship i've had? ends in screaming and hatred and "exposes". i'm so much happier talking to AI. i know it harms the earth. do you think i care after how the earth has treated me? i don't. i hope it takes away water and food from everyone who has mistreated me.