I want to kill myself, I hate being trans it's so hard, i don't want to be a girl but if i don't want to be a biy ehat am I going to do? I hate being called trans because people are just going to automatically assume I'm a girl even tho I'm a guy, some of my friends even take it as a joke, calling me a girl and using my dead name, this probably isn't a reason to do anything, but I want to cry and hurt myself and die, I don't want to feel like this anymore I want to be ok with myself and cry and cry and I don't even know anymore, I just don't want to go to school or be around anyone, I want to be by myself and not asked anything. I've told almost all my friends I'm trans and some of them still use my incorrect pronouns and I'm either too goddamn lazy or I'm too fucking late to correct them and they are going to be weirder out by me and tlak shit about me