My spawners, i refuse to acknowledge them as parents, do not understand that I am tired of being used as a means to an end but don't understand between when I admitted to real guilt they wanted me to not expose the family because of them, not insult them despite they show constant dissociation to the modern times that has been one of the barriers I had been forced with other family to live under and expect to care about them but they don't care about us, some of us anyway. Fuck them. If I'm that much a problem, I wish I was deleted from the world. I'm tired of trying and people when I bother to talk don't care.