I hate that I can't handle emotions. I fucking suck at talking about emotions and I always mask it with humor or just say I don't know how to handle emotions which makes me look like a goddamn jerk. I never cry in front of people.. If I do, I try to hide it. Horribly, but I try. I feel like crying in front of people makes me weak. I can't show people I have feelings other than my usual happy/sarcastic facade. I know this sounds so corny right now but it's true. I can't even sleep. I just... Dont know how to talk to people about my feelings. It makes so upset that everyone else can talk about their emotions but I cant. I just fuck everything up for everyone and myself. It makes me wonder "Do people even LIKE me? Am I even LIKEABLE?".. Too bad I'm too afraid to cut.