Fuck. My step brother brought up how he was going to miss me once me and my dad moved. I don't know how to handle emotions.. No ones ever really told me they were going to miss me. Once he left, I cried. Im still crying. Im crying like a stupid bitch. Why did I have to tell him all my interests and all the things I like so late? Why couldn't I have told him earlier? If I did, I wouldn't hate myself so much right know. Im such a stupid cvnt for not opening up earlier. I just fuck everything up.. Just because I fucking suck at talking to people and handling emotions and actually having serious conversations. Im so glad no one has walked in my room. I'd look so fucking stupid. I look stupid now. I just ruin everything. Every relationship I've ever had.. I've fucked it up so so much. I hate myself. It doesn't help that I have trouble sleeping and I have very visible eyebags. So visible my step brother brought it up to me. I hate me. I hate this. I hate myself. I hate everything.