Sh used to just be a habit to distract myself when I was bored honestly. now I think about it constantly I’m scared I’m gonna do something I can’t take back please help me. And me and my ex just got back in contact, I love her sm still, but she turned to religion and now she says she’s straight? I don’t understand, was I that bad she doesn't ever wanna date a girl again? I miss her sm, I would do anything to go back and be the perfect partner. I’m so sorry, I was mean.