I made my life miserable by myself. Everything is my fault. If I listened to my mom more and stop being such a little picky bitch, maybe my health would've been better. I hate myself for being guilty with things that I know the other person doesn't even care about. I hate how I care too much about shit that I shouldn't. I miss how it used to be, my diet, my relationships, my social circle.. Why is it that I cant even make a single friend? Why do I have to be so ashamed of myself for liking something? I always wondered why humans need all these useless things like money, school, work,...ect. Yeah I sounds stupid and many people would disagree with my opinion but I don't think humans are supposed to be doing all these kind of things in the first place. Aren't all our ancestors started with nothing and lives like animals? Isn't that how we should actually live? Just imagine all the freedom.. but that still isn't enough. What if everyone on earth vanished? Would it be better then?