. id rather talk to a wall because whats the FUCKING DIFFERENCE YOU PROMISED TO BE THERE FOR ME YOU SAY ILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHATS THE FUCKING POINT IF YOU CANT FUCKING HELP ME YOU CANT FUCKING SAY ANYTHING TO ME YOU ARENT THERE ITS NOT THE THOUGHT THAT FUCKING COUNTS WHEN YOU CANT EVEN FUCKING HELPN ME YOU CANT FUCKING HELP ME YOU DONT FUCKING HELP ME YOU DONT FUCKING HELP ME AT ALL EVERYTHING IVE DONE EVERYTHING IVE SAID EVERYTHING IVE TRIED TO DO TO HELP EVERYONE ELSE SOMEHOW I GET THE SHORT END OF THE STICK AND NEVER GET THE SAME TREATMENT IN RETURN WHY DO I BOTHER GIVING THE THINGS I WANT BECAUSE NO ONE GETS THE FUCKING HINT IM SO FUCKING TIRED IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING HESTITANT TO TALK TO YOU. WHY AM I HESITANT? HOW COME FOR YOU YOU DONT HESITATE? MAYBE BECAUSE I ACTUALLY HELP MAYBE BECAUSE I DONTTT FUCKINGGGGGGGG MAKE YOU FEEL THE WAY I FEEL FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCUFUCK CAN I SAY I HATE YOU? CAN I? I DONT WANT TO BUT I FEEL IT AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT