Yk I kinda just fucking hate myself. I'm fat like a pig and ny face looks all shapeless and deformed whenever I look into the mirror for too long, and my body even worse. I can't even wear tight clothing anymore bc then I'll just see how fucking ugly I am. And to think this ugly body has done even uglier things... I have done a lot of bad stuff, I'm 14 and I do stuff that fucking disgusts me, but not to the point of what sickens me the most. I'm dirty, I'm disgusting, because a 12, hell, maybe 11 years old girl, when I was 13, tried to get me to make out with her because she wanted to try and I couldn't say no because I'm a fucking pussy. We've gone a little too far without me even wanting to, just illuding myself into thinking I wanted it because it felt good. And now that same girl always texts me, calls me, and I don't wanna hear her, I hate her, and I have a shit ton of anxiety whenever I see her around. We haven't done stuff in a few months, and what's worse is that I fkin miss it