Almost every night I have like 30-60min sessions of pretending to talk to people abt every kinda stuff. And I do that even during the day, especially when Im playing video games. Sometimes it makes me feel like a weirdo and lonely, cause i wish i had a buddy that would listen to all my nonsense, but whenever im with people Im suddenly the most non-talking person ever. Im just tired, i wanna trust people but i cant. I hate my friends, but i hate them because im an idiot that cant tell a shit to them. I wanna disappear from everyone’s life
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