I told my mom our family doesn't live like people. Everything's unorganised, dirty, barely working. There's roaches everywhere. She says we have everything, a respected retired father, a hardworking mother who earns, a sister to stand up for me, a building for a house(the rooms are rented to others and it sucks) a lovely family. I don't think so, she tells she'll give me whatever I ask for, while still being in debt that only adds up. I don't ask for things anymore, I've always waited to think "Do I really need that?" until I don't remember it let alone desire. Ofc when I do need the cheapest I could find, she's not been paid by her government job. I don't blame her. I'll write later. Well PS: It's me. I'm unorganised, dirty, barely working, not even school work lmao. There's flies in my mosquito net. I'm living like a fucking dog. :D