Fuck my adoptive parents. You know what they used to tell me when I lived with them? "We wish we never adopted you." "I hope you get lost or kidnapped on the way home from school so we don't have to deal with you anymore." "Giving you a chance was a mistake." I heard this, day after day after day for 4 years. Do you know how horrible it made me feel? I feel like it's even worse since you don't just accidentally adopt someone, they chose to adopt me then decided I was a mistake. Like you can get pregnant on accident and then be forced to have the kid, but you don't accidentally or get forced to adopt someone. It's been over 8 years since I last seen or heard them, but the scars and pain are so deep I don't think its ever going away. I legitimately hate myself and feel like I don't deserve anything. My boyfriend deserves so much better than me. Tammie and Paul, I hope you two burn in hell for how you treated me. I hope the devil uses your souls to wipe his ass. Fuck. You.