I go to a big college (40k+ students) but I am so, so lonely. All around me everyone has friends and is literally having so much fun & making the most of their college experience. I love my school but I have no one to share it with. I'm entirely alone; I only have two contacts in my phone who talked to me several months ago because we were in a related class. It makes me sad to know that in 60 years I will look back and see all the opportunities I didn't take or didn't have in this very moment, and it's even scarier to know that right now I am in a position that future me would give anything to be back in... and it's slipping right by me. It makes me so sad to watch myself die inside in real time, but trying to fight it feels terrifying and futile.