im 75.55kg. i feel so fucking fat because technically im not even 13 yet but im around 175cm so on adult terms im a "healthy" weight but barely. i fucking hate it. ive went from 87kg in around nov and reached 66kg in around march but i went back up 9kg and it makes me want to carve out the fat from my own body parts myself. the whole reason i even started this is because im not seen as a boy. im ftm and feel like ill never be seen as one until im bmi 16 or under, hey, at least only 8 more bmi points to go? im 7 hrs into a fast rn about to sleep so hopefully ill get another 48 hour fast again because ive done two 48 hour fasts before (once april, once may) so maybe before school starts i can at least get down to 70, the only downside if i get lower is i get chronic headaches and 600mg of ibuprofen helps best but if my weight is too low i can't take that much so who knows, as long as im skinny. nothing tastes as good as skinny feels i guess?